I hate this feeling, but I love it all the same — the feeling that you just can’t wait anymore. I think every fanboy has experienced it at least once in his lifetime. Whether it be a highly anticipated movie release, a video game that has been years in the making, or a comic book that promises to change the comic world, we have all had that feeling that the long wait we have suffered is finally coming to an end. I liken my feeling of anticipation to that of the first time I remember going to Disneyland ... kind of coincidental the thing I am waiting for now is literally right across the street from Disneyland.

Tonight is the eve of the 2010 Anaheim Comic Con. I know: it's pathetic getting all worked up and giddy for something as routine as a con. I attend this type of thing at least four or five times a year. Yet I find myself sitting here filled to the brim with anticipation. Maybe it's because this is the first time I am attending a con with so much riding on my shoulders. Not just mine, but everyone from NfamousGamers.com who will be there with me. I don’t know how they feel, but for me, I live off this pressure.

This feeling of being at the edge and about to take that jump is what moves me, what motivates me to do better and want more. I am expecting a lot, but I know I must quell my own expectations, because I know to hit everything I want is an impossibility. I can only do so much. We can only do so much. But I have to push myself, or I will settle for mediocrity; and if you know me at all, you know that is something I find hard to accept. I can live with not finishing everything but only after giving it my all. If I don't try for it all and just accept it as is ... well, that just wouldn’t be me. I would be lying to myself.

So I sit here, going over every last detail in my mind, wondering if I, if we, can pull it off. Can we get to everything we are expecting? Can we meet at least half of those high goals I have set for us? Will it be too much? We can, we will, and no. Those are the answers to those questions, because I have to believe we will be there giving 100 percent.

It’s quite funny actually. If I am giving this much of myself to a small event — and by small, I mean in comparison — as the Anaheim Comic Con, what am I expecting of myself and my fellow staff and admins when we get to events like San Diego Comic Con, Anime Expo, and E3? I am not even running the show at these events. I am there in support of everyone from NfamousGamers. I want to do my best because I want to make it a success for us all.

OK. That is enough ranting for the night. I hope I didn’t bore you all with what I was spewing up there. I know I put unneeded pressure on myself. That is just the way I am. Anyway, I hope to see you at the con. If you see me, or anyone else from the site, stop by and say hi. We are never too busy for courtesies.